Had a good long talk with the parentals this evening. It’s good to know that I have support if I decide to quit work here entirely and go home to work and be a bum for the summer, or some combination of the two extremes. I’m not quite to the point of making any drastic moves yet, I’ll give it a few more weeks and see what happens. But basically, I’m semi to completely bored here and there’s not much going on other than work and the work-sleep-work-sleep routine gets boring fast. That and I’m very not used to working on a completely independent basis.
This working situation kinda sucks. I’m independent, meaning I have no-one to ask my stupid questions to, or just random conversing during the day. At the same time, I’m not independent in the sense that I work for myself, I still have to basically sign in and out of work and report what I get done each day. I don’t know how to approach this, because ‘complaining’ about it makes me look like I’m trying to get away with doing nothing, but having to report daily on progress makes me feel like someone is constantly breathing down my neck (which in case you’re wondering, does absolutely nothing for my efficiency). I asked about the motivation for the whole check in check out deal and was told that is was more for my boss’s benefit to be able to understand and get a feel for the process since he is not an EE himself. Apparently the subtle hint that I disliked it wasn’t taken, or was overridden.
I guess the reason this is depressing isn’t so much the current situation, I can deal with that for the summer without much problem, but the fear that this is what life will be like once I graduate and move on with starting a career. I know, it’s stupid to depress myself now worrying about things in the relatively distant future, but hey I didn’t design my brain. If God cared to rewire it just slightly, that’d be find with me.
Anyway, as for the whole work situation I really would rather not pack up and head home, as it screws me out of a job in the Fall and screws people at work out of having useful products which many people, myself included have spent year investing time, energy and money in, hoping to eventually see a payoff. I’m sure it would not exactly do great things for any recomendation I may be seeking in the future either…
You’d think writing all this would just make me more depressed, focusing on it, but no. And I don’t want to appear that I am fishing for comments either, I simply wanted to spout off about some stuff and this seemed like the place. I am actually feeling significantly better about the world in general at the moment.
In other news, I think my processor overheated last night, it was at about 122 degrees F when I looked, which isn’t that hot but for lack of better explanation for why my computer was restarting, that’s it. Now it’s running nice and cool at ~95 degrees, thanks mainly to the box fan I have pointing at the side of my computer. 😛